Nothingness

Yeah, so I have another blog.

I have obtained so many accounts on many various websites that I'm starting to think that perhaps there is something wrong with me. I feel as if I'm trying to look for something that I'm missing. Perhaps I'm just feeling somewhat lonely. I don't know what it is I'm doing or why I'm doing it. I just wish this emptiness goes away soon. I pray for happiness to set in. I really do want to be happy. I don't intentionally make myself sad. Sometimes though, I feel it is much easier than being happy. When you're always happy, being let down only makes me feel worse because I feel like an idiot for being so optimistic in the first place. When I expect the worse, I don't feel so stupid when things end up horrible.

I always seem to have optimism for everyone but myself.